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sebgai mana kalian mengetahui bahwa tokoh cwe utama di blog ini adalah dcymnl, namun setelah saya pikir -pikir agak suasah di ingat kan. jadi sya akan mengganti namanya dengan nama yg mendekati aslinya .... dcygs. dan untuk yuki, saya akan menggantinya namanya  jadi dcymgs yak sekian untuk saat ini, dan mungkin sampai kapan pun gw gabakal bsa milikin dua2nya
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pain

 demon has arise from behind my darkest heart for eliminate my  hate to myself, but the thing is  even my darkest heart doesn't have any strength to fight back my hate. and i just one of its       victim. heart break, hate, the feeling that i helpless, feeling that i being ignored ,that feeling is painful
i never thought that feeling would hurt you that much 'till i got this pain
this pain ,this pain can't  be understood by anyone because human being is never be understand each other
pain 'cause ignored,  helpless, and forgotten
understand just the word to make you feel better  better but the truth is no one can't know your pain, no one want to feel your pain ,even he / she say " i know your feeling, even i ever feel it, but i still can rise from my pain, so are you!" even it is the truth ,he / she can't  sense your pain,because the one that can sense is just you, so am i , no one can feel my pain,and i can't sense their feeling . do some thing will make you forget your pain even just a little piece of it . if you make it to get past your pain,you'll get stronger and get more pain to get past.
(this is not a punch but just the word to share if you feel this information is suck, don't read. but i write what i feel)

how suffer i am

(soo farrrr awaaaay

and i need you to know)

dari post yang lalu, lagu so far away adalah lagu yg paling pas ama perasaan gw. akhir-akhir ini gw beneran lagi bingung, kepikiran mulu, ada beberapa pertanyaan yg gak bsa gw jawab,

1. kenapa dada gw sesak dari hari dimana gw ngeliat mereka beduaan?

2. kenapa gw ga bsa ngelupain dcymnl, ama yuki, padahal gw bsa ngelupain afit ?

3. gimana caranya ngilangin ni perasaan yg gaenak ini?

dan masi banyak lagi yg gak bsa gw jawab dan ga bsa gw omongin. perasaan gw tu kyk ada sesuatu yg ngeganjel di dada, mungkin kedengeran konyol, ato mengada ada, tapi beneran, gw coba ngumpulin rasa benci, supaya bsa ngalahin perasaan gw kw dcymnl,gagal! gw tau, si dcymnl tu benci ama gw, tapi gw gatau deh , kenapa gw tetep ada rasa ama dia, sulit banget di lupain tu anak. manis, imut ,cantik,tapi sayang banget.hahahahahahahahaha gw sama sekali gak punya kesempatan hahahahahahahaahhaha dia terasa jauh banget(soooo faaaarr awaaaay) .gw gak bsa,gak sanggup sama sekali, gak cukup kuat, tapi rasa perih di dada tetap gw terusin. (mungkin hati lw bakal ancur, remuk,ke giles ampe alus, tapi didunia ini ga ada kepastian yang mutlak, jadi apa salahnya nyoba?), salahnya? letak kesalahanya itu ada di perasaan yg sudah jatuh terlalu dalam, simpati jadi empati, terlalu dalam  sehingga terlalu jauh, padahal aku pengen ngomong sesuatu(and i need you to know) tapi begitu banyak penderitaan , sia-sia di jalani, tanpa hasil ,tapi gw gak bsa kembali lagi ,terlalu banyak penderitaan ini gw jalanin,terlalu jauh untuk kembali .hahahahaha now you can imagine how suffer i am. yak hanya itu yg ingin saya katakan saat ini ,klo bsa ksi saran komen aja

so far away

Never feared for anything
Never shamed but never free
A life that healed a broken heart with all that it could

Lived a life so endlessly
Saw beyond what others see
I tried to heal your broken heart with all that I could

Will you stay ?
Will you stay away forever ?

How do I live without the ones I love ?
Time still turns the pages of the book its burned
Place and time always on my mind
I have so much to say but you’re so far away

Plans of what our futures hold
Foolish lies of growing old
It seems we’re so invincible
The truth is so cold

A final song, a last request
A perfect chapter laid to rest
Now and then I try to find a place in my mind

Where you can stay
You can stay awake forever

How do I live without the ones I love ?
Time still turns the pages of the book its burned
Place and time always on my mind
I have so much to say but you’re so far away

Sleep tight, I'm not afraid
The ones that we love are here with me
Lay away a place for me
Cause as soon as I'm done I'll be on my way
To live eternally

How do I live without the ones I love ?
Time still turns the pages of the book its burned
Place and time always on my mind
And the light you left remains but it's so hard to stay
When I have so much to say and you’re so far away

I love you
You were ready
The pain is strong enough despite
But I'll see you
When He lets me
Your pain is gone, your hands are tied

So far away
And I need you to know
So far away
And I need you to
Need you to know 

 

(lagu itu sesuai dengan perasaan sya skarang ) 

koreksi

hey guys, gw mau nge ralat posting yg kemaren, (dcymnl) nah disitu tertulis gw yg tertarik ama yuki, sebenernya gw lgi terpana gara-gara ngeliat dya yg biasanya tomboy keliatan feminim (khu khu khu )<----- ganggu ni! sekejap otak gw kerja," enak ni di jadiin (pacar?) konsep gambar chibi"  soalnya jujur imut banget dya waktu rambutnya di urai, tpi dcynml lebi imut lgi klo si urai rambutnya beh dilema gw milih yg mana ahahahahahha[(pilih yg mna aj tetep ditolak) jujur amat u riz,] klo gini enaknya nyanyi

{dear god ...

the only thing I ask of

is to hold her when i'm not around 

when i'm much to far away}

 yah begitu lah , otak manusia tu ga sama jdi mungkin anda penasaran siapa yuki, dcymnl,feriz,dan saya?

biar sya ksi tau:

feriz=narator /kepribadian ke-2 sya yg saya buat sendiri

dcymnl= korban pertama blog

yuki= seseorang bernama ....... yuki

nah sudah sya ksi tau kan jdi apa anda masi penasaran?

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